Recovery

Now that I am officially done my third and hopefully final round of chemo it is time for me to step up and take my life back. The only problem is I don't know where to begin. I need to make my body strong and my nutrition as good as I can to help my body begin to heal and recover because after seeing the tears of joy run down my son's face and look of pure happiness on all of my kids faces when I said I was done chemo I know I can't put them through that again. The challenge is that I no longer know my body. In fact I feel like I am stuck in a 90 year old woman's body. My strong little ninja self was poisoned to death by chemo. As I have said in the past I have always worked out so not feeling strong and able is new to me. Yes I have felt uncomfortable in my own skin many times but that had more to do with my mindset then my actual physical health. It's not about feeling confident in a bikini (although that is a perk) it's about being healthy, energized, motivated, strong and having enough stamina to do more then walk up the steps without being winded. I want to be able to play with my kids and enjoy the things they like to do that have taken a backseat over this past year. Maybe even teach them a thing or two about being healthy and active. If I was rich I wold hire a personal trainer/ physical therapist, life coach and nutristionist who could work with a chef to create all my meals. Since that's not going to happen I need to become all those things myself. I don't want to feel like my old self I want to feel like a new improved version of myself because I can NOT let my kids down after all I have put them through or myself down because this part of my journey rest on my shoulders rather then a medication, a treatment plan or a Doctor. It's not going to be easy and I could use any tips or suggestions that anyone reading this post has.