The Show Must Go On/ Update

Last week I finally unhappily agreed to start my Lupus meds. I was hoping to hold off until June when my kids are out of school and I was done work for the summer but like most plans in life things changed and I agreed to start on a low dose of meds until June when my dosage will go up and my immune system will go down. I am still trying to wrap my head around why in the year 2014 we can't come up with a better approach then wiping out my immune system leaving my body defenless to viruses and sickness to make me feel better but as they say the show must go on especially when I have three little people who depend on me. I depend on them as well to keep me motivated and focused on the blessings in my life. The first few days of meds left me groggy and   In bed but on day three I felt more like myself and less like a zombie  so I was good to go. I have my moments but my goal is to do my best not to let this disease change my littles (yes I call my kids my littles) because no child should have to worry about a parent being sick. Yes I have moments I break down but mostly behind closed doors or after they have gone to bed. I am good at hiding how sick I feel because the idea of my family worrying about me only makes me feel guilty. I am well aware that things could be MUCH worse and that what I am dealing with is nothing compared to what other people have to deal with on a daily basis. I am not thrilled with how the meds make me feel but if they do their job and I do mine by taking care of myself and eat and live as healthy as possible it will all be worth it. That's what I tell myself when the room is spinning and I  start feeling sorry for myself. I promise as soon as I get some time and energy my blog and posts will be more frequent and focused on fun things like new product reviews and some giveaways.