This is me Now

   I get asked a lot about how I am doing these days so I figured I would do a quick update post. I am still on my oral chemo meds but off the intorovenus version so that has been a huge relief. I wish I could say I am exactly where I expected to be on my road to recovery but I am not. I am still exhausted a lot of the time which is normal but I would like it to go away..now. I find it's best for me to do fun stuff with the kids one day and then the next we just stay home and take it easy otherwise I end up not only exhausted but sick and in pain as well. I have had a few set backs and I am still in the process of learning how to take care of myslef and get myslef healthy because the last thing I want to do is start this process all over agiain and that's what I have been told will need to happen if I don't do what I need to on my end. As you know I am a mother of three, a wife, daughter, sister, Aunt, friend, etc.. So following the doctors orders when it comes to avoiding stress and putting my health first is not exactly something that comes natural to me but I am trying! My kids are ready for me to be 100 percent and honestly so am I. I wish I could speed up the process but that seems to only backfire every time I try so I am trying to take it slow. Summer is my favorite time of year and since we only get it for a few months (if that) I want to be outside or at the beach as much as possible but unfortunately I can't quite do that yet but we will be going on vacation soon so I am counting down the days and praying I have enough strength to enjoy it with my family. I never thought I would be worried about having enough energy to enjoy the beach with my kids. People tell me I look like I am doing good ( except my family they can tell when I am sick even though I try to hide it) and I smile and nod my head because I am doing good. I am not sitting in a hospital so to me that's good. I have someone who is making me meals to help me get my nutrion on track which is a big help. I am still struggling with figuring out how to get my energy and muscle back so I don't feel like I am 100 years old without overdoing it. Luckily the kids are out of school and that motivates me to want to be as active as I can be to make sure that they have a good summer.